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When we read, we are not looking for new ideas, but to see our...

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 11:45:12 -0400

When we read, we are not looking for new ideas, but to see our own thoughts given the seal of confirmation on the printed page. The words that strike us are those that awake an echo in a zone we have already made our own—the place where we live—and the vibration enables us to find fresh starting points within ourselves. Cesare Pavese, This Business of Living

world-shaker: I was wondering how that worked…

Fri, 30 Mar 2012 11:40:32 -0400

world-shaker:

I was wondering how that worked…

What do you do when you want something you can’t have?

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 22:56:57 -0400

What do you do when you want something you can’t have?

“Sometimes the whole world seems fictionalized”

Sun, 11 Mar 2012 16:27:28 -0400

“Sometimes the whole world seems fictionalized”

Power in Splintered Wood.

Sat, 10 Mar 2012 22:24:41 -0500

I shook the sweat from my ponytail and shifted my weight to my dominant foot, climbing back into the dumpster. I stomped tentatively on an old speaker before putting my whole weight into it. I moved from speaker to anything stable looking, searching for things to place at the alter of my discontent. I find an old, beaten desk (or part of one) and pull it from the wreckage, dropping it over the side and climbing after. This will do.

Some say a girl has no business wielding a sledge hammer, but they don’t know the power it gives to someone who lets people damage her. Besides, I feel pain, why not power? At a different point in my life, I might have curled into a fetal position and hid behind my books and things that are safe. But, I can no longer be that person. One too many times I have given in to my own cowardice. I have let needs go unsatisfied for fear of disturbance. I have sealed my lips when I should have screamed at injustice. Too long I have let things go unchallenged. So today, sledge hammer in hand, I will unleash it all. This desk will become the splintered wood of everything that has ever left a scar.

Yes, this will do.

Tomorrow, the pain will be nothing but a distant memory.

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Sat, 10 Mar 2012 19:26:27 -0500

I love this. I may actually start watching Dr. Who because of...

Fri, 09 Mar 2012 13:50:36 -0500

I love this. I may actually start watching Dr. Who because of this quote. If only I had the time….

Even the reminders can't stop me.

Sun, 04 Mar 2012 12:58:00 -0500

I may miss the things we watched together, did together, and laughed about together, but it’s gotten to the point when I can accept those memories as those few happy moments I got to share with you before things got screwed up. There is no longer tears caught in my throat at the sight of those ridiculous shows we stayed up to watch on Netflix. I can enjoy Red Velvet Cake, as I did before I met you.

Yep. I wake up every morning not thinking of how things ended, but how exciting that day’s adventures will be. I wake up ready to jump and run and dance and skip around like the world couldn’t possibly be a better place, even with the war, the poverty, and the crooked politicians.

I am blessed. I woke up breathing another day. I still have soul and beauty and life in me. And nobody can take that away from me, no matter how they try to stick me where they know it will hurt most.

Now, time to enjoy this beautiful day. :)

Dear Unavailable,

Thu, 01 Mar 2012 20:26:52 -0500

You had your own things going on. I understand.

But.

My grandfather died.

I think that constitutes needing someone to be there every once in awhile. And I don’t think it was fair for you to be angry for that.

But I forgive you.

And maybe goodbye is better if you were going to hold my emotions against me.

And just for good measure, here’s a piece of advice for the future:

When someone close to a girl you care about dies, just hold her. You don’t have to say or do anything else. Just fucking be there.

Goodbye,

The Grieving

-theperfectmistake: New addition. This is fantastic!

Thu, 01 Mar 2012 20:20:47 -0500

-theperfectmistake:

New addition.

This is fantastic!

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Wed, 29 Feb 2012 23:06:06 -0500

WTF (Taken with instagram)

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 22:35:29 -0500

WTF (Taken with instagram)

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Wed, 29 Feb 2012 21:03:42 -0500

Moving on.

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 20:57:00 -0500

You’re an idiot if you think I’m going to wait around until you figure out that you overreacted, that all I was looking for was a little acknowledgment that there was SOMETHING there, and that I did NOTHING wrong.

And if you read this, know that you missed out. You will never find anybody who will stay up until five in the morning and laugh at everything you say, just to hear you laugh; who will listen to every idea you have about work or life and ask questions just to hear more about what you care about; who will apologize for taking up too much of your time when every moment seems precious and far apart; who will make plans to go to new places and explore the world with you, even if it never happens; and who genuinely wants to make your life better, but can’t because you shut me out.

And if you never read this, it’s okay. Because either way, I don’t need you. I never did. I just wanted to be someone who made you laugh. I just wanted to be someone you talked to. I just wanted to be someone you spent your precious time with. I just wanted to make your life better. Maybe I did, for a time.

But, since you insist on keeping silent, those privileges will become someone else’s instead.

If only everyone took such advice.

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 20:46:05 -0500

The fifth one down is especially pertinent.

staypozitive:

Don’t tell her, show her.

Don’t keep her waiting, hit her up first once in a while.

Don’t assume things by the looks of it, hear her out.

Don’t make her feel unworthy, keep your ex relationships to yourself.

Don’t blame her for questioning, be patient and reassure her.

Don’t raise your voice at her, she’s already at her weakest point when you guys argue.

Don’t beg for her back, when she finds someone else who treats her better than you can.

A conversation about memories.

Wed, 29 Feb 2012 20:36:41 -0500

M: Until they started asking things, I wasn't even thinking about it.
J: Clearly they are breaking things.
M: I just wish I could cut out every part of my memory that has to do with him.
J: Oh I totally feel ya. I wish I could cut the past few months out, really.
M: Yeah, I'm with you there.

Break-ups break everything.

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Wed, 29 Feb 2012 16:49:03 -0500

YES! This is my life 99.9% of the time. It’s why my...

Mon, 27 Feb 2012 15:01:52 -0500

YES! This is my life 99.9% of the time. It’s why my facebook statuses are almost always song lyrics. Does that make me cryptic or obvious? :/

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Sun, 26 Feb 2012 22:15:23 -0500

If you read nothing else, read this. This matters.

Sat, 25 Feb 2012 22:27:50 -0500

If you read nothing else, read this. This matters.